So lately I’ve been struggling with self body issues. I went and tried on some really cute clothes today and they just didn’t look good in me in my opinion. Or how they should look on me. Now I know i’m not a “big” girl. But I am a size 8-10 in most stores. I have an athletic build and I hate it. All I want it to be tall and skinny, with a gap between my legs.
All of my friends are thin and gorgeous. I want to be them. But in that, I have come to the realization that I am not them, and I will never become them. I am me, and I have my own shape. I may not be happy with it, but its mine.
I’m tired of worry about what I look like, and how I could change every little detail about me. I’m tired of having low self-esteem, and being self conscious. I’m tired of looking in the mirror and wishing I didn’t have a round face with chubby cheeks, that extra weight on my stomach, or having muscular legs that don’t fit any style of pants.
So, with that said, from this day forward, I promise to never self harm, mentally abuse myself over my appearance, or wish for things that I know are unachievable or unhealthy for my body. I will NOT starve myself to look like a twig, but rather eat healthy and make good life choices.
I vow continue to workout at least 3 times a week to help keep my mind clear of the media’s idea of what a woman’s body should look like.
And most importantly, I promise to never judge someone else on their extremity, like other have to me. If you don’t like what you see, keep walking. You don’t deserve to know inner beauty that shines from my soul.
This is my real beauty campaign, and I will learn to love myself for who I am on the inside AND outside. Even if my world hasn’t yet.